Be Not Afraid

Only Love (Thank You Video & Prayer Request)

Merry Christmas and Happy New Year!  It has been quite a while since I last wrote, and I’ve had so many beautiful, blessed experiences over the past month!  While I long to share many of them with all of you, it was just so  important for me and my family to merely relax and enjoy one another over the holiday season.  We had a beautiful time talking, singing, watching movies, and just being together-reflecting on the past year and it’s moments of darkness and moments of great light, and sharing our goals and hopes for the future.

As I was baby-proofing our house for the fifth time this week (it’s been necessary every day as John Paul constantly discovers more and more ways to cause trouble!), I stumbled upon a large box filled to the brim with cards and letters, each filled with a message of love, that were sent to me, Mike, or John Paul during the last year.  Reading through these words of encouragement and support brought me to tears.  How blessed we have been by such love!  I am still attempting to respond to everyone who sent a card or wrote me online while I was sick, and I feel terribly that I have still not been able to get to all of the incredible messages!  If I have not responded to you, please forgive me, and know of my unending gratefulness.

It has been quite a year, a year I will always remember as a time of suffering and joy, and a time when great beauty was found in brokenness.  As I approach my first PET scan since the scan which showed I was in remission three months ago, I have hope in my heart.  But even more than that, despite the anxiety that is beginning to creep in, I have a sense of peace-peace that whatever this year brings, God will continue to walk beside me.

As I did three months ago, I would be honored to carry your prayer intentions with me on Wednesday morning as I am scanned.  It was incredibly powerful to pray for so many of you, and I would love to again offer up the time I am being scanned for your intentions.  Please comment on this post or email me at, and tell me how I can pray for you-no request is too big or too small!  And, if you’ve emailed me a prayer request in the past, please rest assured that I have continued praying for you and will do so again on Wednesday.  And it would mean so much to me if you would pray for me Wednesday morning as I am scanned, and Friday afternoon as Mike and I receive the results of the scan.

Finally, please accept this following video and simple song as a symbol of my gratefulness for how you have supported us this past year:

Auld Lang Syne (Only Love)

Should old acquaintance be forgot
and never brought to mind?
Should old acquaintance be forgot
and days of auld lang syne?

For auld lang syne, my dear.
For auld lang syne.
We’ll take a cup of kindness yet,
for auld lang syne.

What if this year had been my last?
Would I remember all that had passed?
Would those moments when everything
seemed despairing mean anything?

Or would your love be the only thing,
the only thing, I knew?
And would my heart be filled with
sweet memories of you?

If I had only one more day,
this is what I’d like to say:
your love has meant everything,
you’re the reason that I sing.

Oh love is the only thing,
the only thing, to do.
I’ll spend the rest of my days
making memories with you.

And here’s a hand my trusty friend,
please give a hand of thine.
We’ll have a goodwill draught of ale
for days of auld lang syne.

For auld lang syne, my dear.
For auld lang syne.
We’ll take a cup of kindness yet,
for auld lang syne.

Lyrics to Be Not Afraid here.


  1. I so wish that you knew the feelings in my heart, or that I could express them. Your sharing over this year has given me so much. Your words and experiences (and attitude) has given me so much hope. Each time I have read your words, listened to your beautiful voice sing, listened to the songs you have recommended and studied your beautiful photographs I have been so moved and inspired.
    Please know your sharing through your blog has been a ministry to me.
    Thank you, you remain in my heart and in my prayers.

  2. Andy Wyosnick

    Wow. Your video moved me to tears. I’m praying as always for remission! I cannot imagine the journey you’ve been through… May God continue to bless and guide you all the days of your life. God’s peace be with you always.

  3. Megan Herron

    Thank you, Ali…your words have always been a gift to read & hear in song. “May the Lord bless you and keep you”, my friend! You and your boys will be in my heart this week. Talk to you soon!

  4. Allison – so glad to see you’re back to blogging! I’m also so glad to hear you had such a wonderful retreat of love over the holidays. 🙂 I will be praying for you on Wednesday as you have your scan. I think the prayer intentions you’re doing are such a wonderful idea, and I hope to carry that idea with me when I am anxious or scared (thinking outside myself). You can pray for Dayne & me and our marriage, that it would be strengthened and God would use us — also for our beginnings of involvement with our new church. I am so excited for what 2012 is going to bring, and thrilled to see God drawing us closer to Him.
    Sending more love and support your way, and praying for good results for you this week!!!!

  5. Karen Owens

    Alison. I am a friend of your mothers from high school. She was a year older than me and I always admired her! I have read your blog and pray that you remain in remission. You have such a fine husband and beautiful little boy!! Please pray for me, too. My husband suddenly died on December 29 at the age of 63. I am devastated and need all the prayers I can get. He wasn’t even sick. We are waiting for the autopsy report. May God bless you’

  6. My Dear, I’ve only read a few of your entries here (I stumbled on it,) YOU ARE BEAUTIFUL (inside and out). I would be honored if you would say a prayer for me. It would bless me. I need prayer for my two little monsters – NHL and Depression. Both of these things are consuming me. My sister and I are planning a move to Houston as MD ANDERSON Cancer Center is there, the thing that holds us here in Indiana is my sister’s house needs sold. I’m afraid that if we wait too long, my little cancer monster may kill me. My prayer would be about my sister’s house being sold in God’s time but quickly. I’m glad that you give God the glory in your writings. I will be praying for you on Wednesday morning…and after that too. God Bless!


  7. Betsy Anderson

    Ali, I’ve been fighting a silly stomach bug and listening to this really helped me get a grip!!!
    You are so sweet and wonderful. I am praying for you today and always. God be with you.

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