Be Not Afraid

31 Days of Facing my Fears: Day 5 Listening to My Heart

Yesterday I attended a happy hour for young adults with cancer.  It was my first time doing any kind of activity that was specifially for “people with cancer.”

All day I was nervous.  What would we talk about?  Just cancer?  Everything but cancer?  Would it be depressing?  Awkward?  Too touchy-feely support group like (nothing against support groups-at the right time they can be wonderful)?  Would going brand me as, “Allison, young adult with cancer,”?  Would that be okay?

Despite my fears, my husband and I attended anyways.  And this morning, reflecting on the night, I thought this:

Two small slivers of my heart are
cloistered
and
have been, for some time.

One sliver filled with
thoughts so shocking,
hurts so ugly,
and sins so shameful,
can only be loved by God.

Only God
will take it,
and
can replace it’s stoney substance
with that of
flesh.

The other sliver has been beating
and
beating,
begging for my attention.
Asking over and over,
“Is it time?”

As we stood in a crooked circle,
faces and hearts that knew,
that lonely sliver of my heart,
calmed
and
then
started beating quickly again.
It was overcome with excitement.
Oh to be at home at last!
Oh to be understood!

When we find those slivers of hearts that have been locked away,
just like ours,
oh how blessed,
and
oh how thankful,
we are.

My prayer for you today is that you allow those hidden slivers of your hear that are beating quicker and quicker, to get your attention. Dare to put yourself out there and bring them to the community they’re searching for. How grateful they will be.

Thank you for joining me on my 31 day challenge!

Previous days:

Day 1: Be Not Afraid
Day 2: Fearfully and Wonderfully Made
Day 3 Keeping a Faithful Heart in Light of Suffering
Day 4: Facing Fears with Laughter

And click here to read all the other wonderful blogs joining in on this challenge!

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35 comments

    • Thank you so much for commenting! To be among people where you don’t have to explain is SO wonderful and SO necessary. We can’t get by without community! I’m praying in thanksgiving that you’ve been able to find a community that understands. By the way, you might enjoy my dear friend Caroline’s blog (she has a brother with autism and writes beautifully about their relationship)….you can find it at awishcomeclear.com

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  2. I just read all your 31 Day posts. Beautiful. This one, about the slivers, was especially so. I had the opportunity to share one of those slivers that I had never talked about with someone who understood a few weeks ago. It was a strangely freeing experience. The honesty in your writing is so beautiful.

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